I want to de-clutter and unearth the true me, I want to be and live my purpose.
As a friend said to me today, the holiday season had the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Her words couldn’t have summed it up better. I am always so excited for Christmas, and amazingly just as excited to pack it all up after the last family function is done. Nothing has brought me more joy at Christmas than trying to make it as magical as possible for my kids… the way it was when I was growing up.
I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and this year my heart felt especially open, raw, and vulnerable. This has been a pretty crazy year, crazy in a good way! I have gone through so many unbelievable changes, some I couldn’t even begin to explain, and some I pray to God that I never have to relive. I have some women in my life who are true sisters by all means, an amazing mother and grandmother. As well, I have had some of the most remarkable woman brought into my life and have influenced my life, family, passions, and growth more than they will ever know. They have not held me through this journey, but have stood next to me and cheered from the sidelines. We have each taken our turns to go into hibernation and then somehow emerge at just the right time. We have been friends without expectation, I don’t even know if you could truly call us all friends as much as they are my butterflies…
I have been on a journey that I was not looking to go down. This journey has forever changed my life, and I am blessed that my husband been so accepting and understanding of the changes. My children are the inspiration behind it, and my son’s health the catalyst. Our situation has literally made me rethink EVERYTHING! And our situation in the scheme of it is not grave. It has unleashed in me something which feels like is my song, my story. A burning desire to walk along side so many others and help them down their path, a desire to educate myself on how to TRULY be healthy… mind, body, and spirit. It has drawn me to want to empower my children to truly learn who they are, to speak their story through whatever means necessary. This journey has inspired me to want to create again, to write again, to “unclutter my corner, and to unearth my song”.
I think that in order to truly be the change we have to find out who we really are. I am going on a journey to bring my own health back, mind body and spirit. I need to de-clutter myself, to detoxify my body – physically and emotionally. I need to rid myself of all the negative in my life – people and things. I need to reconnect with my family, my true, by every sense of the word, friends and myself. I need to take the time to listen to the birds sing, truly cherish my children, and the life that my husband and I have created. I need to learn to just listen, and be still.
I am starting a “HAPPINESS PROJECT”. I am not doing any New Years Resolutions as there are too many expectations behind those. I am going to start a “Project” where each month I make a few tweaks and minor adjustments to my life to bring me to where I “want” to be. I want my children to sit back and say, she did whatever she wanted us to do, and she changed whatever she wanted us to change. I want my children to know they are not going through this health battle alone, momma’s leading the way… Actions speak louder than words.
Here is my January Project
Honor Myself – Food, Exercise, and Creativity
· Start an anger jar, guilt jar, and happiness jar
· Stop worrying about how others view me, and if I fit into the box that I have been wearing until now!
· Take a photo every day that expresses what I am feeling
· Do at least 2 hours of school work a day
· Do yoga at least 3 times per week
· Work out at least 3 times per week (this is going to be the hardest one for me!)
· Stop drinking coffee and alcohol
· Eat only foods that nurture me
· Remember to take my vitamins and supplements
· Write in my Journal
· Start slowly creating
o Painting
o Writing
o Glass
I am going to be sporadically posting on my project and how it is going… I may post a picture or two or something from my gratitude jar, or it may just be how many days I have been without coffee (I am on Day 1 today). Thank you so much for letting me share my life, my journey and my story with you. Please send me an email or message and let me know what your journey or project may be.
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