“We learn the most about ourselves when we do the thing we never thought we could do. We unearth our potential. Our limits. Our hearts distance. The whispers get nurtured and our spirits soar.”
Kelly Rae Roberts
I have been down a road I never thought would be mine to choose. I have experienced happiness, fear, resentment, and faith. I have found true friends whom have shown me so much joy. I have grown so much in more ways than I can explain.
I haven’t been able to put together a blog in quite some time. I have been walking in circles trying to decide what is best for the company, for me, for my family, for the families we strive to help walk the road of childhood health issues. What I have come to realize the past few months was the person I was not honoring was me. I love what I do, I feel so passionate about the company and our focus. I know this is where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. What I didn’t truly realize was the creative side of me was suffocating.
I have been spending a lot of time the past few months reading books on letting my creative spirit soar, studying for my holistic nutrition program, being a mom, being overwhelmed by corporate paperwork, being a wife, trying to plan meetings, promote the business, meeting with like minded people, finding time to be a wife, friend, daughter, granddaughter, and still “live”. Well needless to say I am overwhelmed.
I have been dabbling in art for the past, well… a very long time. I have always had so much fear around creating, well more around anyone seeing it. Art holds a part of my heart… my soul that I truly can’t explain. I have felt so disconnected from the authentic me for a very long time. When I became a mom it was almost as though I fell so in love with my little man and my new role that I lost a large part of who I am. Along came the health issues, which have truly changed our lives for the better and opened my eyes to many different issues we as a society face. I had my daughter and she opened a door in my heart that I didn’t know was even there. I felt a twinge in me that softened me and opened my eyes to more. Unfortunately expressing myself through words, and art was pushed even further into the closet to be explored at a later date.
I see my kids sit down with their environmentally and allergen friendly paints and start to create not what other people might see as appealing but what they were feeling. Free from inhibitions. I almost get a pang of jealousy, why am I doing dishes or folding laundry or planning meetings. Why can’t I just sit down with them and paint my story. Well, I did. It felt so good to do something with them that made my heart sing. Needless to say I have a crazy stocked beautiful craft room in the basement and a stain glass set up in the garage that have actually never been used. Where is the balance.
I have been struggling with all of this for a while. I have been trying to find the perfect balance between “life”.
I am so passionate about helping other families, our monthly meetings, the products and company. I love taking my Nutrition Designation and what that will do for our family’s health and for all the families we want to help.
I was almost flooded with requests for consultations with families newly diagnosed with allergies, and childhood health issues while we were away on holidays. I was overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed! I want to help everyone, and I think the best way that I can do that is by stepping back and finishing my designation. I will actually have the tools and information that will allow me to walk with you down the journey you are taking with your kids.
I am going to be changing up the website to provide parents with the steps that we have taken to get to where we are now. I will be doing consultations 1 day a month to free up my time and energy to focus on my studies, kids and creating. I am not going to be holding the monthly meetings, however will be using the blog for monthly support topics. I would also like to invite you to contribute to our blog. I will be putting up a word related to our children’s health, motherhood, etc for you to send me to post what that word means to you. Be it a picture, collage, scrapbook page, poem or your story, or baking. I would love to hear your feedback and have you all involved. I get pretty lonely here in blog world when I don’t get any comments. Lol. I will also be putting together some workshops for parents on the topic of allergies, as well as for the kids as it is all about them!
Our Modish Monkeys products have actually been picked up by a National distributor, as well as we have another company selling them to practitioners across North America starting in April. You will still find some of our remaining skin care products through Urban Grasslands.
I truly never dreamt this would have been my path. I was a busy Commercial Realtor until 3 years ago and just let my license laps this year, a big decision for me. For every door that closes another one opens. I truly could not be happier doing what I am doing.
As I walked down the street of life, the road I was on wasn’t clearly marked. I drove in a different direction than planned. I have never turned around to try and find my way back to the main route, I am staying on that path with faith and joy, and so much fulfillment. I don’t plan on ever leaving it! I am not who I thought I would ever be, I am SO much more! It is only through my children that I have found this new direction and love for food, awareness, lifestyle, The Modern Child’s Health, helping others, loving, and creating.
I know the journey is going to be an exciting and interesting one. I am so excited to see what the future holds, to be able to nurture the creative side of me, the mom, the wife, and the future Registered Nutritionalist.
Modish Monkeys will definitely have more of an online presence than we did and will be stepping in a new direction. Hopefully to inspire all of you further along in your journey with your kids health. I am not disappearing, just reappearing more quietly. You never know maybe I will even feel safe enough with all of you to add some of our family art projects and my own.
I hope through all of this, maybe it inspires some of you to tell your story, to share your heart. We will always have a place for you, a supportive community of women bonded together by a common thread, our children’s health. The best is yet to come!
“The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out who you are, seek to determine who you want to be.”
Neale Donald Walsch.
