Sitting in the Silence…
As most of you already know, we have bought our own little slice of heaven and have moved. We have been in the new house for a week today. It is beautiful, peaceful and inspiring. I have been woken up by roosters this week, been scared half to death coming face to face with a moose out my bedroom window, have watched horses feed as I drink my morning matcha. I have had my new neighbors bring me fresh farm eggs, and homemade cookies (didn’t have the heart to tell them we are allergic). This has been a pretty drastic life change for us as a family, one we have dreamed of and worked towards the past few years. For us it brings the freedom to grow our food, raise chickens… and yes possibly even adding a few sheep or goats to the family to assist in the mowing of our vast lawn.
This new adventure has been exciting, terrifying, and has taken me in particular completely out of my “comfort” zone. We made the decision to not have cable or satellite. To be far enough from shops that I can’t just make a quick jaunt in for a coffee or a pack of diapers… okay, really we are only 7 minutes from town… but to me it feels like we have moved to the boon docks… ha ha. It is forcing me to be quiet and be okay without the luxuries and conveniences of town.
The downfall with being quiet is that you must listen to your own thoughts and feelings. You must face the fears that you have suppressed for so long through chaos. Well, I have still had a fair amount of chaos with the move, my fear of the dark, and helping my kids adjust to the MAJOR changes in our life and all this with a husband 1000 km’s away. This has been an insanely challenging month, which for the most part I took in stride with only one major crash… and that was I. Thank goodness for supportive family and friends who jumped in to help when that happened.
I have so many thoughts and visions for what this change will bring, for what our property and home will allow us to do for other families going through the same health struggles we face. I have had so many quiet moments to see what I want the property to do.
Everything in the last month happened so synchronistically that one couldn’t help but feel possibly it was all meant to be. When we first saw the property it was almost as if someone had taken everything we had every thought we might want put a bow on it! It all happened so perfectly and quickly that as I sit here writing this it feels as if I am in a dream and am going to wake up and realize that it is still outside my hands grasp. The house has inspired so many creative juices to start bubbling in me.
The changes we have gone through this past month have inspired me to look at my own health. Moms, to often we forget about us. We are naturally wired to put all others first and hence forget that if we aren’t healthy the whole system crumbles. We are the glue that holds the family together and need to honor ourselves now more than ever!
So for today, I choose to sit in my silence, enjoy every new moments experience. Face my fears and inhibitions. Focus on my whole health… Mind, body, and spirit. To be a little selfish and make the changes necessary to be whole, to feel truly balanced internally and externally. My hope today is that my journey inspires you to remember you in all the chaos of being mother, friend, wife, and daughter.
Our children and husbands will truly be inspired by our authenticity and in such will be leading by example. Together we can walk the walk. For no one has the ability to change lives through example as through a mother! For the smallest changes make the biggest difference.
The real religion of the world comes from women much more than from men - from mothers most of all, who carry the key of our souls in their bosoms. ~Oliver Wendell Holmes
One lamp - thy mother's love - amid the stars
Shall lift its pure flame changeless, and before
The throne of God, burn through eternity -
Holy - as it was lit and lent thee here.
~Nathaniel Parker Willis
Happy Mothers Day!
Sending all of you beautiful ladies so much love. Thank you for inspiring me, for letting me walk with you through the amazing journey of Motherhood!
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